Getting Frustrated

This weekend we heard a rumor that a package was coming from China and then we learned that it contained travel notices for 2 special needs families instead of our referrals. UGH! Good for them but upsetting for us. Then on Sunday night Mark and I checked the website in China and learned that referrals were sent out to families but only those who are logged in by May 25th. Our agency didn't receive any of those referrals because we are their next group and our log in date is May 31st. It is so confusing. We knew that 1800 families had applied the same month as us and that is triple the amount that they usually receive in a month. I am getting more frustrated now than ever because I know that we could get called any day and it is kind of hard living like that. We have been waiting for this since November, we should have had her by now. I know it is totally out of our control, I really haven't been affected by it until now. Our moderator through AAI says that referrals can come twice a month and that our lady in China will check in with the CCAA next week and check the status. Evidently we are still in the matching room. We have been in there since December. I wonder how old she is and I know that she is getting older while we wait. Our fingerprints need to be redone again because of our long wait. I pray that the rest of our documents don't have to be re-done. It gets expensive and time consuming. We did learn that my cousin Steve and his wife Trudi who are adopting also have the same log in date as us, that is just miraculous considering all of the families being processed. Wouldn't that be exciting to see them in China! We both started the process at the same time and didn't know each other was adopting! Hopefully we both hear on the same day, that would be wonderful! Dayton is getting afraid that we will be there over his birthday on May 1st. We are getting into our really busy season and I would love to have time for all of us to enjoy being a family before living at the ball fields for 3 months! Patience ,patience I know.......